Nervous Conditions
December 1, 2007
S: The real changes I’ve seen in my life all happened when I was totally beside myself, and feeling that if I didn’t stop something, whatever it was, that I would be dead in a few days or minutes. I was feeling desperate, and I don’t think people can trust those states.
AH: My dear friend, it is always desperate like that-we just don’t see it. You think of physical death as a bad thing. What happens to most people is worse. It’s always a desperate condition. This is one of the truths you need to see. You have to look at your assumptions and ideas and see that things could be different from what you think. You thought at one time you were in a desperate situation, and I see that you are always in a desperate situation. You might cover it over. People cover up their desperateness and hopelessness and everything else. Most of the time people are desperately trying to do something. There is always this feverish movement going on inside, always. If you really look at yourself deeply you will see that.
- A.H. Almaas, Diamond Heart, Book 2, p. 115 (“Change and Truth”)
